It’s been almost 10 months since I’ve started this blog. I still haven’t advertised my site (davetang.org) or my blog (davetang.org/wordpress) to friends and family, although if you Google “Dave Tang”, davetang.org is the second hit! (yes I Google myself). I guess I can’t compete with davetanghorses.com, with their 40 years of experience with horses (just to clarify, they are first hit, if you Google Dave Tang).

But the purpose of having my own site was just for the satisfaction of owning a domain, especially one with my name in it! And the purpose of my blog, was just to have an outlet for the many things that cross my mind. Although I am a bit more attentive to what I write these days due to a very bad experience. I dread what happened, but it was a good experience in professionalism.

But you know, sometimes I still want to delete this blog. Keeping this blog, opens me up to the world. I may be attacked, criticised and be judged for what I write. My pages are open to anyone with an internet connection (who at this stage, has to bother with Googling me). And there’s always the problem of me wanting my blog to be a perfectly articulated piece of art, which it isn’t and which it why I want to delete it.

But I mean, this is me. This is who I am; these are my interests and these are the things I care about. I am not perfect and there will be times when I have difficulty with issues, just like anybody else. So I think I’ve come to accept the fact that this is really me. And I’m not writing a novel either.

I like to write. However, I have this small problem of deleting, crushing up or just disposing what I write. Usually because I believe that what I have written is not up to standard. I don’t think there are any standards imposed on blog writing, yet I have this need for perfection. It’s sad really, since I have removed a lot of what I have written. On top of that I also have this feeling of being ashamed for my feelings, which may also contribute to me removing much of what I write.

Nevertheless, here I start another fresh blog. And the first thing I tend to write at the start of every blog/journal I start is, I hope this blog will continue on and that I will enjoy writing in it. I hope I will be able to read back on all the events of my life.